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| This wasn't meant to change the world, or even the night. It's not supposed to shatter lies, or make dreams come true. This is simply a mission statement. Something for everyone, but really for me and you. You see these nights are few and far between and rarely are taken advantage of. I luckily am here at the computer with all these things to say and no one to listen. So I'll write until I am content and then rest my case, for I have said my peace. What I have to say isn't simply put. It's matters of the heart and mind. Some of these things aren't easy to read, but imagine how hard they are to say and live with. You know, as of late I've been realizing life isn't as fair as it sometimes seems. I mean you get a piece of pie, but it isn't the right kind. We re-untied and it was like fireworks. No doubt it was mutual. Laughter, stories, and just complete peace. Like we never missed a beat, but reality comes knockin on my door. It can't be. There's someone else, and it's not me. What do I do? Say how I feel and let it marinate and see where it goes, or sit back and just remain silent and keep a steady hand. You know last time I spoke on how I felt I didn't hear their voice for a year. So I don't think it's a wise decision, but something like this is bound to come out sooner or later. I just hope later isn't.....too late. See, this is a dilema because I hear the I'm happies, but feel like that's not all there is. Of course I haven't talked to you in a year so maybe I'm a bit rusty at this, but I used to be pretty darn good at telling whether or not I was getting the whole story. All I can do is speak for myself though, and I know my birthday was awesome. I got everything I asked for. And since I only asked for one thing that's good right? I say jokingly to myself, "You know what you want. Do what you've gotta do." But, the truth of the matter is.....I'm not so sure. I think I'm rambling, but some of it probably made sense so let me know. It's really hard to concentrate when a puppy is biting your toes haha, but good night to you.
There's more to come, but for a later date.
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| You know I got those mad rhymes......yo. So anyway summer's here, and it's time to play. Hit me up people.
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| Am I crazy or am I talking to myself on here?! This xanga used to be where it was at, but now it's where it was. What happened? Oh well, life is good, but short. Shower the people you love with love, show them the way that you feel, things are gonna be much better if you only will.... shower the people you love with love. -James Taylor (a genious songwriter)
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| My gift to you, my heart was yours. Two years you shaped it, and in two months you murdered it. Torn from my chest and laid at your feet that first step you took was the worst. Since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remarks, and I still have these memories but we'll never see what we could have been. Remember when we talked about where we'd be years from now? Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go? Remember, cause that's all you can do. We'll never make another memory, we'll never make another memory. I wish I would have died in your arms that last night we were together so I wouldn't have to wait without you one more day. I thought things were real, you said they were, what happened? You were a priority, was I an option? I let you see a side of me I don't share with anyone. Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled. You knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart, I'm sorry it wasn't enough. So you'll go your own way, and hopefully you'll remember the things I told you. Hopefully you'll understand everything I said was in sincerity. A broken heart was not what I wanted from this, but I guess I've learned from it. But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes? I don't consider this a mistake I just wish the story didn't end this way, because I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it. Remember when you held my hand like you would never let it go, remember when we talked about where we'd be years from now?
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| Hope shrinks, skies darken, and flames burn out. But my love for you will never fail. You've gotta take it while it's still here... | | |
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